d r e a m s

Sometimes Well, most of the time my brain goes from zero to sixty in .2 seconds. This happens in every part of my life. For example, let's say I have a stomach ache. My thoughts go from "I'm going to be sick" to "I'm going to die of stomach cancer" almost immediately. It happens in my personal life when I get a tiny crush on a guy and my thoughts go from "I really like this." to "Think this is something more serious?" (You know you do it too, girls.) It happens when I think about job, it happens when I think about my family.. It happens with e v e r y t h i n g. I think of every little detail and every little "maybe" that gets me going and I get anxious about the littlest things so quickly. But recently, I've found myself taking away the excitement of things because of anxiety. Like, I won't celebrate something because there's always the thought of "maybe not." I'm not sure why this is happening but I do know that I don't like living in the "maybe not."

In every part of my life lately, I've been hearing talk of dreams. Not necessarily dreams that only happen when you're sleeping (even though I have been having weird dreams while I sleep) but real life what-is-my-purpose-on-here-on-earth dreams. Dreams that make you think "If money was no issue, what would I be doing everyday?" I've been hearing lots of different conversations about dreams at work, with friends, on the radio, at church and in my devotional book. Also, as I'm sure many of us do, I also noticed myself thinking to myself and my purpose lately. I think things like "this can't be it, this cannot be all that I'm living for." I can't be living for waking up every day to my alarm going off. I can't be living for rushing to get ready, never wearing makeup and throwing on an outfit to make it to work 2 minutes later everyday. This c a n ' t be it. 

Of course, with these conversations comes thoughts and prayers. I know I have dreams. I know that God places these dreams in my heart and I know that they're there for a reason and there's no reason to be so anxious that you're sick over them.That being said I'm excited for a lot of things that are happening in my life life. I'm believing God for a lot of things in my life. I know God has been and is preparing for a lot of things and it's OKAY to be excited. It's okay to believe what he's placed on your heart. It's okay to be a peace with the things that aren't going to work out the way we originally thought that would and it's okay to trust God's lead you to wherever he's taking you. Confidence in what you know is true is what will get you through.