What to do in the mean time..
I’ve spent most of my summer prepping for my house to go on the market. It’s a weird feeling knowing that I only bought it less than 2 years ago and the time I have left in it is limited. I have definitely found out that selling a house is not for the faint of heart. Now that it’s finally the week my house will go on the market and I am at the mountains enjoying time with my family, it all *almost* feels worth it. (Now let’s sell it baby!) As I’ve been vacationing with my family, I’ve had quite a bit of time to think and relax so I decided to write these thoughts down in regards to my 100 days of Brave. (Because something about the mountains makes you reflect)
As this transition begins a lot of exciting things are happening, but one of the hardest thoughts I face is that I feel like I’m behind. Like I haven’t hit all of my adult milestones. Most of my friends are married and some of them are pregnant or planning families and that is just not the stage of life I am in right now. Yeah, I totally wish it I could be planning my future with that special someone but that doesn’t mean my life is at a complete halt. This thought is especially hard for me because I, for one, think I’d make a great wife and mother. (Excuse me as I step off my pedestal.) But seriously I always seem to put the blame on myself like it’s something I’m doing wrong and everybody else is doing right as the reason I don’t have those things but the reality is it’s not. Unfortunately, I don’t know the reason but that half empty way of thinking is not making this any easier. In reality, I’m happy, I’m healthy, I have wonderful set of friends and the most supportive family and for some reason it feels like something is missing. But that can’t stop me, the desire to have my own family and the create something for us cannot stop me from living my life. I will not let the fact that I’m single limit me. I refuse. As paralyzing as the thoughts of being alone can be, I have to choose to move forward and focus on the moments that are happening right now because if not, they’re going to slip right through my fingers and time doesn’t stop for anybody honey! So I’ve been thinking of things that I (and maybe you, too!) can do in the mean time because when “my time comes” I don’t want there to be anything I wish I would’ve done when I was single.
Here’s the list so far:
1 | Travel. SERIOUSLY. Have you ever traveled with kids? Yes, it’s fun! But what other time in your life do you only have to worry about one person while visiting other places. Also, think about how much cheaper the bill is when you take just yourself somewhere. And let’s be honest, this teacher salary isn’t going to be able to afford a family vacation for 4...
2 | Spend time with those that are close to you. So maybe you don’t have to go on a spring break trip with your family like I do every. single. year. (No really I love my family!) But as much as you like to be at home on saturdays. Jump in the car and visit the people you love. Currently I’ve got a grandma that keeps asking when I’m coming to visit her. So you know what? I’m going to visit her! If your family is too far, hang out with your friends! Have a party. Do something you don’t normally do with them and create moments that you’ll remember forever.
3 | Call your Mom and/or Dad. Or if you’re a really good kid move back near home so you can see them whenever you want (Not sure if i 100% recomment that yet...I haven’t actually moved yet) As much as you don’t want to believe it, they’re not getting any younger either. It’s not lame to hang out with your parents, I mean your mama birthed you for Jesus sake, cherish the moments you get! Yeah every family dynamic isn’t the same but they brought you to this earth because they wanted to make memories with you - so call them up, plan something fun and enjoy!
4 | Get really good at your job. Perfect your craft. Make it fun for you and everyone around you! This year is my fifth year in education and yes, I know what I’m doing but I want it to be the best it possibly can. With a new school, I want to be the best I can at it right now. Even if I don’t know if I’ll be a teacher forever. If I’m going to do it, might as well be good at it.
5 | Do the things you *shouldnt* be doing. No I don’t mean drugs or breaking the law. But I do mean stay up late watching your favorite show because you want to even if you have to work in the morning. I do mean going on week nights to see that concert you’ve been wanting to go to. I definitely mean buying the dang shoes.
Those are just a few of many things you could be doing....not including things like sleeping in the middle of the bed and using all the covers, eating ice cream for dinner and not having to shave your legs for days at a time... l know that my story may not be exactly like yours because you’ve got the things I’m praying for. And I know that my story isn’t any harder than anyone else’s. I just want to share how I’m feeling in hopes to inspire or remind others that they are not in this alone. Whatever you’re hoping for, whatever is not working out exactly why you want it to, whatever you think you’re doing wrong - don’t let it stop you from living in this moment right now.
...Now excuse me while I go watch Space Jam with my nieces and nephew for their first time.
As this transition begins a lot of exciting things are happening, but one of the hardest thoughts I face is that I feel like I’m behind. Like I haven’t hit all of my adult milestones. Most of my friends are married and some of them are pregnant or planning families and that is just not the stage of life I am in right now. Yeah, I totally wish it I could be planning my future with that special someone but that doesn’t mean my life is at a complete halt. This thought is especially hard for me because I, for one, think I’d make a great wife and mother. (Excuse me as I step off my pedestal.) But seriously I always seem to put the blame on myself like it’s something I’m doing wrong and everybody else is doing right as the reason I don’t have those things but the reality is it’s not. Unfortunately, I don’t know the reason but that half empty way of thinking is not making this any easier. In reality, I’m happy, I’m healthy, I have wonderful set of friends and the most supportive family and for some reason it feels like something is missing. But that can’t stop me, the desire to have my own family and the create something for us cannot stop me from living my life. I will not let the fact that I’m single limit me. I refuse. As paralyzing as the thoughts of being alone can be, I have to choose to move forward and focus on the moments that are happening right now because if not, they’re going to slip right through my fingers and time doesn’t stop for anybody honey! So I’ve been thinking of things that I (and maybe you, too!) can do in the mean time because when “my time comes” I don’t want there to be anything I wish I would’ve done when I was single.
Here’s the list so far:
1 | Travel. SERIOUSLY. Have you ever traveled with kids? Yes, it’s fun! But what other time in your life do you only have to worry about one person while visiting other places. Also, think about how much cheaper the bill is when you take just yourself somewhere. And let’s be honest, this teacher salary isn’t going to be able to afford a family vacation for 4...
2 | Spend time with those that are close to you. So maybe you don’t have to go on a spring break trip with your family like I do every. single. year. (No really I love my family!) But as much as you like to be at home on saturdays. Jump in the car and visit the people you love. Currently I’ve got a grandma that keeps asking when I’m coming to visit her. So you know what? I’m going to visit her! If your family is too far, hang out with your friends! Have a party. Do something you don’t normally do with them and create moments that you’ll remember forever.
3 | Call your Mom and/or Dad. Or if you’re a really good kid move back near home so you can see them whenever you want (Not sure if i 100% recomment that yet...I haven’t actually moved yet) As much as you don’t want to believe it, they’re not getting any younger either. It’s not lame to hang out with your parents, I mean your mama birthed you for Jesus sake, cherish the moments you get! Yeah every family dynamic isn’t the same but they brought you to this earth because they wanted to make memories with you - so call them up, plan something fun and enjoy!
4 | Get really good at your job. Perfect your craft. Make it fun for you and everyone around you! This year is my fifth year in education and yes, I know what I’m doing but I want it to be the best it possibly can. With a new school, I want to be the best I can at it right now. Even if I don’t know if I’ll be a teacher forever. If I’m going to do it, might as well be good at it.
5 | Do the things you *shouldnt* be doing. No I don’t mean drugs or breaking the law. But I do mean stay up late watching your favorite show because you want to even if you have to work in the morning. I do mean going on week nights to see that concert you’ve been wanting to go to. I definitely mean buying the dang shoes.
Those are just a few of many things you could be doing....not including things like sleeping in the middle of the bed and using all the covers, eating ice cream for dinner and not having to shave your legs for days at a time... l know that my story may not be exactly like yours because you’ve got the things I’m praying for. And I know that my story isn’t any harder than anyone else’s. I just want to share how I’m feeling in hopes to inspire or remind others that they are not in this alone. Whatever you’re hoping for, whatever is not working out exactly why you want it to, whatever you think you’re doing wrong - don’t let it stop you from living in this moment right now.
...Now excuse me while I go watch Space Jam with my nieces and nephew for their first time.
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